ME AND NOW

Its me, I was awake all night thinking about blog. HOW, AND what to put on papper.Well here it is,yesterday was filled with excitment i walked with theses POLES,And actually walking,I walked from about Westwood st on lougheed to shoughnessy st, OVER bridges down sidewalks through intercections , To reitmen office to docters or shrinks office.WELL i explained circumstance.You see ive been fighting with this guy for over 5 years about  .I did this he done that and so on.Well i havnt explained this guy is 55 years of age and treats peaple like unworthy DOGS teases mocks generally HUMMILATES you.WEll it happend yesterday,I see shrink FIRST time ive CRIED,And not man like either.This guy is problems galoir.IM hurt emotionly mentaly had to leave foodbank cause of this.THis has been prying at church seeing a shrink, reading FORGIVENESS pappers on fridge going to my dads house on schooter to get explained WHAT ACCEPTANCE is or means.You see i only understand if need HELP. its that if needed.You see understanding not a strongsuit.AND the whole thing doesnt matter anyhow anyway.Its me the braindead guy ANYHOW

POLES

Well its me again,Yesterday when me and Tyler walked Lafarg lake with these crosscuntry ski POLES and like WOW.What a work out.Came home relaxed grabbed POLES and proceded to walk to shrinks office on Lougheed and Shaughnessy LIKE MAN .I was WALKING with these POLES,And ballanceing stabbilizing and LIKE what the fck..WALKING ive gotten these walking sticks from Sandy about a year or two ago.You see i couldnt opperate these things,Must be getting STRONGER from going to gym. With Tyler like here it is Tyler suggest I conquer.         WITH POLES IM WALKING,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Brain survivors meeting @ clean@sober incidents

Hi there its Me again ,Just got off phone with sis AND i told her about meeting. It was about volintering. WHICH i do anyhow, WED foodbank Fri Value village , The rest of week is A.A then gym or BOWLING which i like very much. I play the WII game otherwise or do blog . Life is very different for me. When i am A.D.H.D ex A.A or N.A guy who has 3/4 tattoed EX convict who know has this T.B.I. THAT actually lived threw an accident like mine should be dead.Well i have been clean@sober for 15 years. You see im not like i was before being a clean@sober horse THIEF.Makin the bakon doesnt allways give you a hand up. YOU see this is first TIME ive aggnowledge this, about being HONEST to dad and sponser.THEY LAUGHT when i told them. LIKE they never knew.So sneaky not allways the way........And i go to freinds 2 year cake tomorrow.

THE TRUTH

Hi ther,How are you peapls,Liston i just got off the phone with dad and he knew I WAS A CLEAN@SOBER HORSETHEIF ALL THES YEARS well know its been 15 yeaes,5 years ago gotten in a chopper accedent.SINCE then its been a frustrating time for me BUT. I am helping peaple. NOT the usall its payday when i want day.For 10 yeaes i was not that good.5 years have been GRATE.With no BULLSHIT but loveing my Wife and dogs i call FAMILY.Getting the same back 10 fold.My life is different NOW,Its my buddies Birthday on friday How KOOL can it be,

its monday

Well todays day is speacial i go to a meeting with Ron. Like every monday since accident,FRIDAY will be a buddies BIRTHDAY.And i get to go with RON.Its not like my birthday with this FCKN T.B.I. any ways.I go to meetings wheather i want to are not. Im at the 15 year mark, with t.b.i Last 5 years.My life has dramaticly CHANGED since then.

" MY PRESENT "

    Alarm going off and it is Friday A M  got up with Laurie we got ready to go . Like first thing first . We took Harley,  the feelings, emotions THAT were going through ME were pretty exciting.So Harley and Wife left for home after egg breakfast sangy and coffee at Tim Hortons yum yum. I went to ValueVillage to do my volunteer position for sweeping out store before it opens, with all the other workers they call me the Friday Guy and that makes me feel good every Friday they get paid so it is a good day for all I  have fun there with the people and they make me feel welcome and part of every Friday . 


    Scootered home had coffee got ready to ACTUALLY WALK to Pharmasave. Didn't realize that they were quite the grocery store as well,got what we needed didn't even have to go to Safeway so that saved a trip to another store .Walked home with a bag full of bread and other stuff, Being that's what I can carry.  Laurie takes 2 bags and  the milk,Ya now all the man duties. Got home PLAYED  WII with Sweety. Went for a walk with my BOYS tonight , I had BUSTER Laurie had SCOOBY, and HARLEY. They ran ahead of us and I was loosing sight of them , I Started to jog with BUSTER and calling for Laurie, And then realized I am jogging I am ACTUALLY JOGGING .I've got a feeling deep inside you know, Aren't Feelings and emotions  like out of this world, I felt like a million bucks I was actually jogging down the alley I did't go for long but still first time, first time man unbelievable.


   I want you to remember to keep going with the thoughts of" trying, and trying, and trying until you succeed with whatever you wanted to do. Everything is a small goal and dream and amazing how it feels to jump over the hurdles that I have and all the hurdles I will have but that is what is so amazingly cool about Life isn't it .

     The Quote that my wife and I love and was the theme on some things at our wedding was" LIFE IS NOT MEASURED BY THE BREATHS THAT WE TAKE, BUT BY THE MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY. " SO TRUE

past, present, now

YOU see i did have a past,full of being kool saposidly. DRUGS,DRAMA, JAIL you know that kinda bullshit.YOU see i had to grow up,NO cops NO drama ,no uncool stuff if you know what i mean. So got marriad to wrong one paid dearly OH WELL, life moves with yaa, or without yaa. Got married again thank GOD, With one who is totally BLESSED. Then got into motercycle accident.Left that one with T.B.I...You see sometimes.Your left feeling i dont no.You know living with A.D.H.D. being alcoholic drug addict ex convict fully 3/4 tattoed good looking guy,As told from wife.Know has this t.b.i..What fucken gives.You know had a life, choppers, wife,, house ,cars,, dogs, kitties, Life changes in a blink of the eye....Know its trying to consntrate with one thing at a time then REMBER. Give me a brake. Cant rember yesterday,Never mind earlyer todays deal.Took me 5 years being clean and sober BEFORE being able to ride with the ELITE,Then 10 years clean then BANG again 5 yeares march 30 2007.Every thing CHANGES yet again.So livin into today, sometimes very difficult.