Brain survivors meeting @ clean@sober incidents

Hi there its Me again ,Just got off phone with sis AND i told her about meeting. It was about volintering. WHICH i do anyhow, WED foodbank Fri Value village , The rest of week is A.A then gym or BOWLING which i like very much. I play the WII game otherwise or do blog . Life is very different for me. When i am A.D.H.D ex A.A or N.A guy who has 3/4 tattoed EX convict who know has this T.B.I. THAT actually lived threw an accident like mine should be dead.Well i have been clean@sober for 15 years. You see im not like i was before being a clean@sober horse THIEF.Makin the bakon doesnt allways give you a hand up. YOU see this is first TIME ive aggnowledge this, about being HONEST to dad and sponser.THEY LAUGHT when i told them. LIKE they never knew.So sneaky not allways the way........And i go to freinds 2 year cake tomorrow.

THE TRUTH

Hi ther,How are you peapls,Liston i just got off the phone with dad and he knew I WAS A CLEAN@SOBER HORSETHEIF ALL THES YEARS well know its been 15 yeaes,5 years ago gotten in a chopper accedent.SINCE then its been a frustrating time for me BUT. I am helping peaple. NOT the usall its payday when i want day.For 10 yeaes i was not that good.5 years have been GRATE.With no BULLSHIT but loveing my Wife and dogs i call FAMILY.Getting the same back 10 fold.My life is different NOW,Its my buddies Birthday on friday How KOOL can it be,

its monday

Well todays day is speacial i go to a meeting with Ron. Like every monday since accident,FRIDAY will be a buddies BIRTHDAY.And i get to go with RON.Its not like my birthday with this FCKN T.B.I. any ways.I go to meetings wheather i want to are not. Im at the 15 year mark, with t.b.i Last 5 years.My life has dramaticly CHANGED since then.

" MY PRESENT "

    Alarm going off and it is Friday A M  got up with Laurie we got ready to go . Like first thing first . We took Harley,  the feelings, emotions THAT were going through ME were pretty exciting.So Harley and Wife left for home after egg breakfast sangy and coffee at Tim Hortons yum yum. I went to ValueVillage to do my volunteer position for sweeping out store before it opens, with all the other workers they call me the Friday Guy and that makes me feel good every Friday they get paid so it is a good day for all I  have fun there with the people and they make me feel welcome and part of every Friday . 


    Scootered home had coffee got ready to ACTUALLY WALK to Pharmasave. Didn't realize that they were quite the grocery store as well,got what we needed didn't even have to go to Safeway so that saved a trip to another store .Walked home with a bag full of bread and other stuff, Being that's what I can carry.  Laurie takes 2 bags and  the milk,Ya now all the man duties. Got home PLAYED  WII with Sweety. Went for a walk with my BOYS tonight , I had BUSTER Laurie had SCOOBY, and HARLEY. They ran ahead of us and I was loosing sight of them , I Started to jog with BUSTER and calling for Laurie, And then realized I am jogging I am ACTUALLY JOGGING .I've got a feeling deep inside you know, Aren't Feelings and emotions  like out of this world, I felt like a million bucks I was actually jogging down the alley I did't go for long but still first time, first time man unbelievable.


   I want you to remember to keep going with the thoughts of" trying, and trying, and trying until you succeed with whatever you wanted to do. Everything is a small goal and dream and amazing how it feels to jump over the hurdles that I have and all the hurdles I will have but that is what is so amazingly cool about Life isn't it .

     The Quote that my wife and I love and was the theme on some things at our wedding was" LIFE IS NOT MEASURED BY THE BREATHS THAT WE TAKE, BUT BY THE MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY. " SO TRUE

past, present, now

YOU see i did have a past,full of being kool saposidly. DRUGS,DRAMA, JAIL you know that kinda bullshit.YOU see i had to grow up,NO cops NO drama ,no uncool stuff if you know what i mean. So got marriad to wrong one paid dearly OH WELL, life moves with yaa, or without yaa. Got married again thank GOD, With one who is totally BLESSED. Then got into motercycle accident.Left that one with T.B.I...You see sometimes.Your left feeling i dont no.You know living with A.D.H.D. being alcoholic drug addict ex convict fully 3/4 tattoed good looking guy,As told from wife.Know has this t.b.i..What fucken gives.You know had a life, choppers, wife,, house ,cars,, dogs, kitties, Life changes in a blink of the eye....Know its trying to consntrate with one thing at a time then REMBER. Give me a brake. Cant rember yesterday,Never mind earlyer todays deal.Took me 5 years being clean and sober BEFORE being able to ride with the ELITE,Then 10 years clean then BANG again 5 yeares march 30 2007.Every thing CHANGES yet again.So livin into today, sometimes very difficult.

understanding

Well you see its new when i wake up Life i mean. Today i go with tyler to gym.He helped me with blog the other day. You see to write this takes alot of thinking.Not one of my strongpoints.Anyways i am trying to live and be, into TODAY not the past.Of i gotten into a motercycle accident March 30 2007 ya know.Never mind what i did before Its now,Do the right thing ALLWAYS. To me the right thing respect,concideration,HONESTY,ya no look after self program,wife,family.LISTEN hear whats said HEAR.UNDERSTAND. Live life for today.

bowling

Well its me again,Went bowling got a score past a 100. Tyler and i went today, fun, fun,fun.Started by walking up to line. THEN CROUCH THEN TOSS BOWLING BALL.NO FLUID MOTION, but AFTER 5 YEARS OF FRUSTRATION I AM DOING IT. noticing THE LITTLE TRIVELS ALONG THE WAY IS INSPERARATEIONAL.