melt down...

hi, ime jamie, somedays are better than most. ive gotten in arguement with bro, about my dad, i had to force him in kids toybox by desk outside, then bite him.what ame i gonna due when i listen to bullshit last 8 years , when i couldnt beat myself out of wet papper bag.anywaze christmass at dads and moms with kids, like kool . had surviors group , i told every one i didnt want to be this t.b.i. shit no more,,.first time pretty well.ive burst, botteling up i geusse,,,you see emotions feeling are gone at times,life is hard frustraring for me. all things did before, ane ezeenow a fucken struggle,,,,.

My Life Now: b. g.

My Life Now: b. g.: liston it will be my birthday on tuesday nov 18. my wife brought to the home resturannt on thursday. we ate went to 240th st parked she came...

b. g.

liston it will be my birthday on tuesday nov 18. my wife brought to the home resturannt on thursday. we ate went to 240th st parked she came back with this short legged tiny jack russel, like i was in shock at first, burst out crying, held this tiny life    my wife just gave to me... so ive been up down back yard shes meet bella , and barbie  , we decided on name baby girl orin short   b.g      like for wrate know shes on my lap as i write blogg  . man i havnt seen costomed up little girls in this way   i had heide a rotwyler ,,first dog , you dont dress them kind of dogs, so first time was yesturday ime so blessed, this is unreal for me,  mom came over, ray at lauries work my sis like every one i knew  , knew before  me    like wwhat   icryed and everything...

my life.

well i havnt wrote since monitar was down, went golfing, at eagle quest in coq, my freind carla had her ex hubby guy there to eat with us when golfing was over. i didnt mind my own buisness, natruly i raised my fist said beware made every one no, her mom said jamie there good freinds, i said when did good freinds work after its not working and your just angaged... so anywaze i contuned on having fun with dom hes a new freind to our group, betwine me and him he knows i rode with the haney hells angels he hung with vancouver were childhood freinds our members.listen for starters i couldnt beat up a wet papper bagin the condition im in, you see ime blessed for one was sober last 16 years, yes i was a sober horse theif    anywaze. we went to go one man boat sailing at jerico beach in vancouver. i would  have to ketch buss. in morning                                      
 mornung to poier st. in coq to meet sandy caverly our cordnater most beutifull ladt with no judgement what so ever,we went to jerico beach had a picnic for everyone who showed .at the end of day me and dom went with an instructor in little boat which had a sail . lile how kool we got to go see freighters sun shinning  . lifes good. next was our meeting group at surviors.i asked carla if she knows god our touched his hand when accedent happend. she said of course jamie of course . i almost burst into tears . its the thing ive thought since accedent  or in my case   what . ive allso got to go pick up mom. lauries mom we had a blast . played wee frisbe golf for all hours of    the night    .  

i dont know what i am at times

listen , listen please my  moniter            r broke down havnt been able to write blogg. never mind this its very frustrating and hard havnt wrote. life is life went golfing with grobelerive ime blessd , i asked carla well she thinks shes blessed  , if you havnt a tramatic injury i dobt youd have the same feelings . asked did you feel gods hand  the replie is yes you go like  forreal and this is true.

monitar broke had to ask to get knew one

well its been a while, moniter broke , had to ask for one , thank god for teresa , terry, at the foodbank i volinteer at in poco. my life is well. every day is knew full of excitment , walked wiyh stroller to food bank on shaunsy. so walked there and  back with wheeled walker , like f n  kool  o.k.  ime stuck on this not giving up , from buddy michell on his facebook page.  you   see   were   surviors . ime an ex biker due to accednt. ex con vic a.d.h.d. adult with this ex dope head alcholic, 16 years sober with my dads help of coursae, i awoke at hospital dad said  hi jamie your a sober horse theif    i said   what the life has gone on from there .  ive started to regionize my life with actually being blessed. and no shit ime  saying  what  the f   .our surviors group understands thourly. because i think its because weve been blessed. and we know the hand of somewhat of   god     .so i try things possibly ime capable with laurie  my absolutely blessed wife for evan staying with me as tears are running down my face. like i think when is it   give me a brake   .                                          

going places

woke up by 730 got on schooter, left home went to eagle ridge hospital. seen my buddy rob there,then seen my speach theripist dan carlson. then left hospital, what an experionce,then went home caught bus at 1230 had to walk with walking poles to bus station caught bus went to meeting place the coquitlam library,seen sandy caught a ride to eagle quest golfing .20 of us went mini golfing michell coss is mom and dad give me a ride home, like    whats going on here     im independent...