FORGETFULLNESS

I SHOULD OF SAID MY FREIND MARK CAME AND SEEN ME . I HAVNT SEEN MARK IN  YEARS, HAD TWO DIFFERENT LIVES, MINR UNCONTRLLABLE , HIS NORMAL HES A JURNEYMAN MAINTANICE MAN FOR DIAMOND DRILLING IN ALBRTA. LIKE IVE ONLY KNOWN OF GUYS WORKING IN MILLS OR FACTORYS ORE DRIVING TRUCK OR LIKE ME A TRUCKER , ALUMINIUM EXTRUSIONIST, WORKED ON CARS BIKES LIKE I WAS A FCHEN BIKER , RODE WITH THE CLUB  YA KNOW IN A BLINK OF AN EYE ALL GONE ..,,   BEEN CLEAN N SOBER FOR 16 YEARS CONSISTINT   3 YEARS BEFORE TO GET TASTE OF CLEAN LIFE ,.HAD TO BE CLEAN 5 YEARS BEFORE COULD   RIDE WITH CLUB     SO ACTULLY I HAD A LIFE MARRIED   THANK  GOD  HAD KIDS HARLEY SKOOBY BUSTER A HOUSE IN HANEY BY SHOP     YAA KNOW   A   FCKN   LIFE.

my freind

well as blessed i must be. my freind maek norman came to see me. he has a wife named ebany, 2 kids with this one . in another one kid his own and two step children , has had a normal life from salmon arm. hes a dimond driller, like besides him with a degree most of my freinds ride harleys, work for peaple unlees your haney hawgs and you own buisness, it was grate learning and listening.you see all if not most freinds been to JAIL due to ther own dimize.WE ALL HAVE TO GROW UP SOMETIHES IN LIFE.

survivor

survivior, well its fitting, ive surviviored drug an alcoholic addiction, for today,.ime 16 years out of 25 years trying got 3 years clean from my freinds recouvery houses, i do work on friday clean up ,moowing lawns at prairie house, ive SURIVIORED this t. b.i. accedent ,ive surviviored the useing or being loaded part of this life for today.you see i moow front and back lawns, clean dogs up feed walk to river, or around bloock, surviviored this awakeing from being chemilicy indused into koma, like what gives never felt this way in life stoned ore NOT...my NAME OF SURVIVIOR I WOULD LIKE TO BE TATTOOED ON MY BACK WITH TOP ROCKER TO BE SURVIVIOR BOTTOM ROCKER TO BE BRITISH COLUMBIA AN ANGEL IN MIDDLE OF BACK O.k. its called life...i work at value village on fridays, i go to meetings the rest of week, mondat, friday noon meetings i get to see my sponser , you see when i awoke from this t.b.i. there was RON MY DAD MY BEST FREIND MIKE, BILLY . YOU SEE I YHOUGHT I WOULD WAKE UP TO DEGENERITES, LIKE LOWSERS LIKE I WAS LOADED OR SOMETHING ,YOU SEE WHEN AWAKEN I REMBER A DAY BEFORE accedent and maybe 20 years back good thing ive been clean life out of 20 years. and thats wear my dad dont worry if ime shoot ore dead cause of clubb they shoot thrir own kind.you see none of my beleafs are true i wanted to ride with the elite and i did from 1998. i may have strange thinking but i SURVIVIORED

me

you see i do things unnessisary, because of my wants or needs, you see ive prettywell lived life my way my wants for last 20 years clean n sober, so am i entitled to somewhat my way without asking anybodys help ime 49 yaa know and i do know everything...

wreck beach and stairs

hi there, i went with scott and kera, and my wife laurie, went to wreck beach on friday morning, like we get there in u.b.c..we start walking and thers stairs and railings like the last time i went, i told my sister, she said in a laughing manner what did you do shromes, like i said its been along time and the walkway has stairs and railings.    so its been a while ...     i would like to say this scott and kara are like my freind  mark as i was a kid, you see with this b.t sometimes you dont know if tour commin ore going, anywaze my freind mark had compassion and kindness helped to bitter end and back then moved away got a life got married and is going to show up at house to bad i lost house ,rods ,harleys ,corvetts, got to see me for who and what i am really. not some guy whos a.d.h.d ex convic alcoholic druggaddict who now has t.b.i. like what fckn gives.anywaze scott me laurie, and kara walked, i think scott said 467 steps there then back, well im here i made it   kool

its just different

hi, how are you, ime whatever. up down allaround. anywaze i had to put my dog buster down. so that there is know suffering thank god, you know i love him, had him for 14 years.i had a house in hammond, bike. hotrod, corvette, 2 other dogs skoobt. harley  you know a fcken life, with wife you know job amongst everything else, you know trying to be compensionit, write blogg for self and disabled. you see ive accepted schooter to go places. cause i need it to get places, otherwize i am not disabeled. and thats that.you see my dad says my life is better .and i say what the fuck..at least my parents know ime safe.i jamie have to look forward and let go of the past and move on.you see for some reason i think of a day before accedent. well its positivelly now.