me and life

well i finaly got to this writing deal. hi hiw are you,im fine. ya know life throws  you curve balls..you see before this accedent. i was born with a.d.h.d.  then im a drugaddict slash alcoholic,  ex convict know ive gotten t.b.i. after a motercycle accedent.  like give me a break ive been fighting all my fukn life. with one thing or another.well you see i make it 43 years of age thinking ive gotten this fckn a.d.h.d. in controll .ive gotten drug addiction alcohalic bullshit out of the way gotten the copps and robbers crap out.you think just live normal after accedent. but no...and i mean no.life is now what i can achieve with what i have. being humilated for last 6 years from outstanding grate guy . are you ex perionce man. this goof has beaten me up,a couple of times cause ive talked wrong. like are you kidding me... i am disabled scoter bound . like hello...

life at christmass

well hi ther, i am fine.well i went to brain survior meeting by 3 when its allways been 2 ,so i was late from buss cought it to late. first time ive been late. have to get ready before hand, get dressed,eat get raingear ready, get walking to coquitlam buss depote catch buss than go to meeting its at coquitlam library. this allso is my life.ME AND LAURIE went with Scoot and KARA TO ANTONS picked up pasta from back door went to Stanley park.Ate food on a park bench, like how kool,,, had NEWTEARS under the stars.KISSED NEWYEAR IN.WENT TO MOM AND DADS, for christmass dinner spent gift opening with LARA AND TERRY THE KIDS. NO FUSS it was grate , first time in 49 years ate with LAURIE MOM AND DAD FOR CHRISTMASS DINNER, ON I GEUSS WOULD BE DAY AFTER.SAID THANKS TO SANDY,SHE CORDNATES THE T.B.I FONDATION MEETINGS WITH THE GROUP.THIS IS LIFE FOR 20 OF US,,,,

my bike, like how kool.....

CHRISTMASS

Well how are you, i am grate , life once again , you see i was in a serous motercycle accedent MARCH 30 2007 . life is different for me , never mind the excitement , i get this everyday, Go to meeting at lunchtime at kinsmen centre .get to go to foodbank help out volintering, thursday comes i go bowling friday, get to go to value village then innervision recouvery house clean up than go, my life is GOOD NO MATTER WHAT. do work than hang out with CLEAN N SOBER PEAPLE like what gives,,,.BEEN 16 YEARS CLEAN NOW.....SAYING MERY CHRISTMASS GOOD NEW YEAR.

happiness of cake day

hi there , how are you , You see its my 16 year cake of sobriety,CLEA N SOBER , You see i spoke about please come weather you want to are not.YOU SEE IVE DONE STEP MEETINGS ,IVE DONE Bigbook studys . ANGER MANAGEMENT , 2 TIMES AND FAILD, Been through 4 detoxis 2 treaement centres. recouvery house, from freind i met 20 years ago,you see this friend named billy has given me jamie a job on fridays claning smoke pit and weightroom up. THANK GOD theres clean and sober peaple who would give a SHIT,,,.i also had the priveledge to see my FREIND BAD BRAD,, ive known brad for 35 years so hes been up and down this road as my MOM AND DAD HAS.........YOU SEE BEFORE ACCEDENT WAS ANGREY RESENTFULL AGAINST ME,after has been a ride, you see with this t.b i. i have short term memory. so ive been sober for 16 years  before that was clean for 3 years.. before the consistancy of 16 I COULD ONLY REMEMBER BACK ABOUT 20 YEARS ,,BEN CLEAN 19 OUT OF 20 I BELEAVE.so life is life. and THANK YOU.........

SOMETIMWS YOUR NOT RIGHT

HI THER, HOW ARE YOU . YOU KNOW WHEN THE SKY IS GRAY, I SAY NKOW ITS NOT ITS BLUE REALY. WHY I WOULD GO TO THIS EXTENT, IS BEYOND ME, DONT YOU KNOW ITS ABOUT ME ME ME,YOU KNOW IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH LIFE NONE LISTENING, I NKOW.WELL GEUSS WHAT YOUR ACCEDNT WAS 6 YEARS AGO LIKE GET MOVING ON. YOU KNOW LIFE IS WHAT IT IS. SOMETIMES MY CONFIDENCE LEVEL GOES DOWN DOWN, BECAUSE I DONT LISTEN.THEN I MAKE THE EXUSE BUT IME BRAIN DEAD DONT YOU NKOW. I USE THIS LINE OF TERMORALL AGAINST, I HAVE A BROTHER, I WONDER SOMETIMES IF THIS GOOF NKOWS IVE BEEN IN AN ACCEDENT ORE NOT, BEEN TOLD I TALK TO HIM WRONG, I NEED A SPANKING ,SO ON AND SO FORTH, ANOTHER WORDS LIE ITS BULLSHIT ANYWAZE, AND YOUR YOU AND THATS THAT. GROW UP, YOU SEE SOMETIMES I WONDER HOW YOU WOULD ACT AFTER A T.B.I. ACCEDENT. YOU KNOW I KNOW ITS NOT   RIGHT BEFORE ACCEDENT OR AFTER,,,,,

REACTIONS AND GOD

Well hi ther, how are you, ive been better. wanted everyone to know evan T.B.I. surviours, have reactions, I picked a potted plant and threw it at this guy and freind, this guy mocks and teases me every time i step out the door, IVE GOTTEN no knew freinds. YOU SEE I BELONGED TO THE MIND YOUR OWN BUISNESS CLUB . before accedent, YOU SEE .NOW ITS LIFE ON LIFES TERMS, NO MATTER WHAT.YOU SEE IVE BEEN CALLED NAMES AND TEASING ALL MY LIFE.WELL GUESS  WHAT IVE HAD ENOUGH.SO I REACTED AND NOT THE RIGHT THING TO DO, IVE PRAYED IVE SEEN SHRINKS, IVE DOON EVERYTHING POSSIBLE MYSELF. WITHOUT CALLING FREINDS FROM MIND YOUR OWN BUSUINES CLUB/ YOU SEE I HAVE TO GROW UP AS RON MY SPONSER OUR DAD WOULD SAY. I GO TO THE FOODBANK ON WED .PRAY VOLENTER HELP OUT.YOU SEE I AM LEARNING YO PRAY THE RIGHT WAY, LIKE ALL THE TIME, WITHOUT SAYING AMEN. NOT HAVING TO GO TO CHURCH TO HAVE A CONTACT WITH GOD ,YOU SEE LEARNING FROM A FREIND  ROB AT FOODBANK, YOU SEE I BELEIVE HE STARTED AT A RECOUVERY HOUSE BUT AS USALL  MOCKED TEASED FOR WHO AND WHAT IS  MAN, UNBELIEVABLE.... YOU SEE I WENT TO 4 DETOXES 2 TREAEMENT CENTRES ,RECOUVERY HOUSE. JUST TO STAY CLEA AND SOBER MY FREIND BELEIVS IN GOD, HE KNOWS FOR SURE FOR HIM